"Out over the hillside I see the houselights shine, burning bright to guide somebody home. Here inside my own house I am lighting mine, and it burns against the night for you alone. Until these arms grow to heavy, to hold this candle high. Until these eyes grow to weary, to search the midnight sky. Until this heart has stopped it's beating, until these dreams have all run dry... I'll be, keeping watch for you." - Margaret Becker
These are among the most beautiful lyrics to a song that I have ever come across. An articulation of a longing that finds it's home in every recess of my soul. Try as I may to drown out the ache with pleasure and vice...the inescapable, unavoidable and immutable gentle whisper refuses to release it's earnest grip of me. Calling me to wait. Beckoning me to seek. Hoping that I would forsake all other loves and elevate it above all other desires that would aim to lay claim over me. How foolish I have been so many, many times. So many times have I fled the arms of perfection and crashed into the clutches of destruction. How blind I have been to a beauty compared to which all other beauty is but a murky shadow. How often I must have grieved the heart of a Lover who watches my wayward path...ever present...never forceful.
This life taunts and seduces with numerous trinkets that demand their price. Agents of darkness sprawl out their spiritual snares. Promises of delight ooze from their contorted lips, forcing shallow smiles that mask seething snarls. They maim, manipulate, mutilate and gleefully salivate as trace after trace of life escapes our weary lungs. Liars! Thieves! Murderers!
There is but ONE pearl of great price! There is but ONE treasure that is worth forsaking all others. There is but ONE wondrous Love that shines brighter and more dazzling than anything the universe can boast of, or anything beyond. He eternally remains utterly unique, unchallenged, unparalleled, unsurpassed. The very sight of whom makes the mountains tremble and the heavens burst out in song. The Bright and Morning Star...radiant forever more. Jesus the Christ. May my journeying heart yet find it's home in Him. Devoted. Faithful. Blissfully content. For there is none other worth pursuing. None other at all. Simply...Jesus.
